Diet Journal (5 days at the same weight :-()

Date: May 6, 2013

Day 3 of the 14 day induction into the Atkin’s low carb. diet.

Supplements: a woman’s multi vitamin and fish oil

Weight: 143.5 Pounds (9 am)

 Breakfast:

3 cups Coffee with half and half and one packet of Splenda each

½ can of diet caffeine free lemon tea

½ cup of egg salad

2 sticks of string cheese

Lunch:

Diet pop

Salad
Veggies
Ranch dressing
String cheese

Dinner:

One Can of Diet Sam’s Cola

Pork roast that I cooked in the crock pot for 7 hours, and cooked celery.

Raw veggies: Red, yellow and orange bell peppers, 3 green onions, some cauliflower and broccoli

Tues 5/07
Supplements: a woman’s multi vitamin and fish oil

Breakfast:

2 eggs with cheese
Tea
Coffee
Lunch:

Salad
Veggies
Ranch dressing
String cheese
Dinner:
Cheese artichoke mushroom onion and black olive with some tomato sauce

Weds 5/08

Supplements: a woman’s multi vitamin and fish oil

Breakfast:
2eggs w cheese
Coffee tea
Lunch:
Tuna salad
Lettuce
Veggies
String Cheese
Pork rinds
Dinner:
Hamburger party
Provolone cheese
Green beans steamed
Sugar free jello with whipped cream

Sugar free Popsicle

Thurs 5/09

Supplements: a woman’s multi vitamin and fish oil

Breakfast:

1 egg w/cheese
2 sausage links
Coffee
1 can diet caffeine free tea
Lunch:

1 can pop
1/2 cup tuna salad
Pork rinds
Celery
Cucumber
2tbsp deans French onion dip
I string cheese
Dinner:
Beef roast, Cabbage, Green olives
Guacamole
Sugar free jello w/ one carb whipped cream

Guacamole and picco de gallo

Fri 5/10
weight 143.5

Supplements: a woman’s multi vitamin and fish oil

Breakfast:
1 egg w cheese
1 sausage link

Tea

Coffee

Lunch:

Salad w/ranch, Avocado, Hardboiled egg, shredded cheese

Diet pop

¼ cup of egg salad

Atkins 2 carb bar

Dinner:

Turkey Burger, motz and Colby jack cheeses

0 carb jello

O carb Popsicle

Sat 5/11

weight 143.5

Supplements: a woman’s multi vitamin and fish oil

Breakfast:

Hardboiled egg

Coffee

Atkins 2 carb bar

Lunch:

Turkey burger w/provolone

Dinner:

Salad w/ oil and vinegar

0 carb jello

0 carb Popsicle

2 cups Coffee w/ ½ packet diet cocoa mix and 1 carb whipped cream, sprinkled with cinnamon

Diet Photo Journal day 2

I love that she has red hair!!!

Date: May 5, 2013

Day 2 of the 14 day induction into the Atkin’s low carb. diet.

Supplements: a woman’s multi vitamin and fish oil

Weight: 145 Pounds (9 am)

3am Snack: (because my daughter was sick so I was awake and starving): 2 salami roll ups

 Breakfast:          

2 cups of Coffee with half and half and one packet of Splenda each

½ can of diet caffeine free lemon tea

Scrambled eggs made with two eggs and a good pinch of shredded Colby jack cheese.

Lunch:

Tossed salad with a small pinch of shredded Colby jack cheese, 3 green onions, 3 slices each of red, yellow, and orange bell pepper, one hardboiled egg, one celery stalk and 2 tbsp of hidden valley ranch dressing.

I was still hungry so I had a salami roll up.

Snack:

chicken salad on 4 or 5 pork rines

Dinner:

@El Vaquero Mexican Restaurant (to celebrate Cinco De Mayo)

Fountain diet cola

½ cup of pico de gallo on a bed of lettuce with guacamole and sour cream.

 

 

 

 

Yuck! Yuck! Yuck!

Two of my problem spots : thighs and chin/neck (motivation to avoid those nasty carbs!)

Diet Photo Journal day 1

Date: May 4, 2013

Day 1 of the 14 day induction into the Atkin’s low carb diet.

Weight: 147 Pounds

Breakfast:

2 cups Coffee with half and half and one packet of Splenda each

2 egg omelet with a good pinch of Colby jack shredded cheese

Lunch:

One Can of Diet Sam’s Cola

½ cup egg salad

One Roma Tomato sliced into 5 slices to which I added a chunk of mozzarella cheese, fresh basil a drop of olive oil and a sprinkle of oregano.

Dinner:

One Can of Diet Sam’s Cola

Rump Roast of Beef (cooked in the crock pot for 8 hrs.), onions and some mushrooms.

Also one slice of salami wrapped around chopped scallions in cream cheese. (i.e. salami wrap)

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If You Want Me To

I’ve practiced this song so many times… so I never expected that when I was singing it in front of the congregation that I would get so emotional… but oh well It’s such a moving song! I just love it, and I have for years, just thought I’d share

If You Want Me To
By Kyle Matthews and Ginny Owens
Soloist: Allison Irons
Accompanied By: John Barile and Betsy Nonnenmacher
Holy Trinity Lutheran Church ~ Toledo, Ohio
St. Patrick’s Day 2013

ugh! I am so sad and happy at the same time in my life right now

How can I feel like this one minute

Falling
Falling and you catch me
Falling And you’re falling
Falling in
Falling into each other
Falling with no landing
Falling with each new thing
Falling more
Falling more everyday
Falling hard
Falling fast
Falling far 
Falling for you
Falling forever
Falling
Falling
Falling into my happily ever after with you.

And feel all sad the next….

I just don’t understand it

…praying for understanding

Grief Stricken and Sleep Deprived OR Money and Messages From Above? You decide :-)

Today is the 9 year anniversary of the death of a great man named Bob. Bob was my fiancé. Bob got brain cancer and six weeks later he passed away. Bob was an awesome person, father, fiancé, friend, son, brother and even a great father figure to my son. With it being the anniversary of his passing I wanted to post a couple of poems I’ve written about him over the years. I also want to share a very personal story about his passing. I just want to honor his memory – I don’t have money to put anything in the local paper – so I’m going to try to honor him this way.

Bob fought the hard fight for six weeks – he wanted to live, he was scared of dying, I wouldn’t let myself believe that he wasn’t going to make it – so when he did finally let go in that hospital bed that night I was beside myself. My dad, my best friend Kris, and my brother Steve all took shifts because they didn’t want me to be alone. I remember constant crying when I wasn’t around my son – lots of nose running rambling that lasted for hours – when I did sleep, which wasn’t much, it wasn’t restful. The TV was constantly going to try to distract me and give some background noise – it wasn’t working because every other thing on TV is about death or cancer, I swear – at least it is when that’s what you’re dealing with at the time. Sigh.

The time had come to go to the funeral home. Everything was taken care of. Dad had gone with me to pick out the flower arrangement: A red rose for every year of Bob’s life in the shape of a heart with palms (because we met right around palm Sunday). I wanted a red sash that said fiancé and a yellow sash that said buddy (because that’s what he called A.J.). Mom had gone with me to get my black shoes and my very pretty black pin striped skirt suit.

It was time to go see him. I was going to see him with no life in him. I wasn’t ready. How can you ever be ready for something like that? I cry now thinking about it – the finality – the utter agony of finally finding the man of my dreams only to have him taken away? (pausing to pull myself together) My brother, my dad, Kris and I headed to the funeral home but stopped at a brand new Tim Hortons that had just opened to unite and collect ourselves first. I felt like I was gonna poop my pants and I felt like I was gonna puke. With everything in my insides wanting to come out I figured I better go sit in the bathroom (I told you it was a personal story didn’t I?) Kris went with me of course. I went in my little private stall and sat down. I remember telling Kris that I was freaking out. But then I stopped talking to her. I was so sick, I was lost, even my insides didn’t know what to do or where to go – how was I going to survive this? I remember it clear as a bell; I said out loud “Lord, you’re going to have to help me get through this.” Then all of a sudden something caught my eye – right on top of the toilet paper roll sat a shiny quarter. I said to Kris “I just found a quarter,” not really thinking much of it. Oh how I wished I knew how to turn off how scared I was in those moments, I continued sitting and feeling sick, miserable and sad. I really WAS freaking out, my legs were jelly, and my heart was pounding inside my chest at 300 miles an hour. I had never felt so desperate; at a time like this I only wanted one person – Bob. I wanted to have him help me, I wanted his hugs and his kisses and I wanted him to wipe my tears so I said out loud “Bob, I’m gonna need you to help me too.” Something caught my eye right then, shining on the floor in the stall with me was a bright shiny dime. I told Kris “Oh my gosh I just found a dime.” So as I was washing up and getting ready to leave the bathroom I was in a daze but then it dawned on me and I told Kris something to the effect of: Ya know, I really think that was Bob’s way of telling me “I’m here with you and I’m helping you 10 times more than you could ever know” and God’s way of telling me “I’m with you and I’m helping you 25 times more than you could ever know.” I told her I had to keep the coins and grabbed ‘em up, slipped them in my little black dress purse and off we went. The 3 long days at the funeral home, the funeral, and the burial were awful just like I knew they would be – but I survived thanks to my great support (both here on earth and in heaven).

So Bob was gone – but at the same time always with me, looking down from Heaven. But either way, my life was changed forever. It was like my life was split in two that day. Like when a lightning bolt splits a tree down the middle. From that moment on I’ve always looked at my life like two paths. The path I’m now on and the path I would’ve been on if Bob hadn’t died. I try not to, but, I catch myself looking over at that other path from time to time – but I look over a lot less than I used to, that’s for sure – so that’s good.

              

You are truly missed Bob 1974 – 2003

Bob and Me at my brother Steve’s

My favorite picture of Bob and me.